Rudderless

Brave new worlds.

Untraveled roads.

The paths with no footprints.

Virgin skies.

Pure blue seas.

The places we want to go and have never been.

The things we want to do that we’ve never done.

Beginning anew and endless starts.

Ending doing nothing and beginning to follow my heart.

Lust

I wanna crash my fingers on the keyboard and make it bleed.  The poor authors and poets of old never knew the bliss of hate typing the fuck out of something.  Angry letters  to the editor with every period a fist into the desk.  The next line ripping the enter key off its place on the right side.  Fuck it, I’ve got another.  I’ll actually use the number pad for once.

Cracking my neck.  Left then right, just like the boxers do.  Pound my fists together.  Fingers out.  Hit the qwerty, let’s go.

What kind of passion draws these emotions out?  The burning scorched earth so deep you can smell it for miles.  Wild fires look as if you’re walking through Hell’s gate and they’ve left the front door open.  The valet will take your car.  Bring your bags, you’re staying the night.

But it isn’t hate, is it?
No.  Of course not.
Hate can fuel an explosion, but it can’t do what lust can do.  Lust can melt steel.

Poets speak of a drive given to us by nature.  One we cannot deny.  It consumes us all at one time or another.  It wets lips that were once dry.

Authors devote their entire existence to describing the beauty of lust.  They talk of times they had it through people that never existed.  These characters are all just parts of themselves walking through a life that never happened talking about an ache that was so god damn real.  Lying with pretty words and spinning truths because we can’t just say it.

I’m not done.  I’ll never be done.  It will go on and on forever.
The burning will continue.  The flames will lick the walls and suck in the air.  Water will boil.  Possessions will melt.
Don’t let me forget to thank you for lighting the match.

Something new

The grass isn’t always greener but that never stops me from taking a peek over the fence.  It does look pretty damn fun over there.  The toys aren’t brand new but they’re new to me.  The swings have seen plenty of pushes while just as many have taken their turn down the slide.  The monkey bars and jungle-jim have both been handled again and again, but I’ve never had the chance and I want to try them all out.

You’re something new.  Different from everyone else but similar in a way that makes me wonder about you.  I’ve got a sickness with this type of thing.  Noticing someone new and taking an interest.  Taking it so far and then having it fade like a snap.  But the newness of it all is thrilling.  That chase.  The seeker and the sought.  The catcher and the caught.

This is all new to me, but familiar as fuck.  I don’t know you, yet.  The hope of what you will be in my head probably can never equal what you actually are, and that’s my problem.  You don’t need to be anything other than what you are, be damned what I think I want.  You’re something new to me but this is all the same chase I’ve done time after time.  New can get so old some times.